Entertainment Circle

Ever since i got into this media related stuff starting out as fans, i have been wanting to work in media line. I have been trying hard to get contacts everywhere but afterall i don't know what i really want. I don't know what talents do i have, neither do i know what i want in life. I am taking one step at a time for my life right now. I have no goals, no ambitions, no dreams, nothing! Unlike my brother who is so talented in many areas and can study so well.

I don't even know why i even want to work in media line. Maybe because i am able to see the celebrities? I notice something that is really true. When you don't know the celeb, you will treat them like god, but when u know them, you treat them like normal human being. When i first started out as fans few years back, i really treat my idols like god kind lah but after knowing them, im immune to it already. It just another human being.

I have build up alot of contacts now and i will have the opportunity to work in media line if i really want. My friend told me that media line there is alot of conflicts, backstabbing and very complicated issues going on. You won't understand it until you experience for yourself. He say it is better for me to focus on my studies first before you think of anything else. You have all the time to work for your whole life next time anyway! He say that he is very immune to those international stars already. Even they are just infront of him, he is like oh ok kind lah.

I even have friends who know my dear yanzi personally! I even wanted to use connections to get to know her but on second thought, i don't want. I don't want to know already than the feeling will be very different already. I rather it to be fans to idols kind of feelings than to any other weird feelings. Its very true, like when i chase my idols during events and seeing them in mediacorp is totally a different feeling! I just want to take a picture with my dear Yanzi and its enough, i rather her to be my idols. For taking pictures with her, i can ask my friend to help me if necessary.

This entertainment circle is too complicated already! So many darkness so many issues! I really don't know should i still bother to work in there. I have got friends who work in many other industries and its wasn't easy too. No matter what, education still play a very important role. Without a certain standard of education, you won't be able to work in an environment that u want.

So my main focus is to study hard in school! School starting in 1 week time! I cannot be wasting my time on media related stuff anymore! When school starts, my life will be either studying or meet up with great company and chill out! I find this more meaningful than to chase every now and then. I am sick of it already and my main concern is YANZI now! I will use my spare time to appreciate her even more. Great music really bright up my soul! I won't get sick of my yanzi songs although i listen to it every single day!

I totally LOST INTEREST in watching TV already. I don't know why, i don't have the urge to go to my living room and switch on my tv and watch any shows. I just go to my room and do my own stuff. If not i will be meeting up with friends. Not that mediacorp productions is lousy or what lah, i just lost interest in watching tv thats all. Haiz!

I hope my favourites are doing great now! I cannot be bothered so much about SA list also now. I don't even know whether i want to attend SA night or not also.

Anyway i have found a new meaning in life already! Jia you SK!